In light of your holiness and generosity, I’m aware of my unworthiness and sin. My pride and self-focus are bulging and monstrous; I confess these sins to you.
I confess that I long for the attention and praise of men. I want people to say that I’m important; I dream of the admiration of others.
My self-worth rises and falls too often with page views, comments, and incoming links. I check my blog stats more frequently than I should, more frequently than I would admit.
As I write, I am tempted to draw attention to myself. Instead of using humor and playful word choices to serve readers, I have chosen phrases so others will think I’m clever.
I have not always used my words to glorify you. Instead, I have written to impress other people and make a name for myself.
In these sins of self-exaltation, I have walked in the opposite direction from Jesus. Your son made himself nothing, while I have tried to make something of myself. Though your love frees me to pour out my life and energy for others, I have too often only paid attention to me.
For the sake of your son, please forgive me.
In light of my sin which only you can forgive, I need change only you can bring. Merciful God, please change me. Turn my bent-inwardness around and renovate my heart.
Use my writing for your glory. Help me write in service of your people.
Give me only the opportunities that would point others to you and bless your church. Keep me from projects and outlets that would bring me spiritual harm.
Please give me ideas. Help me think well about you and your world. Tether me to your life-giving word.
When I sit to write, give me words. I depend on you. Give me helpful, persuasive, wise, gracious, godly, timely words.
Empower my friends to speak to me honestly. Rebuke and correct me by your Spirit and your people. Strengthen my elders to shepherd me.
Help me remember the gospel. Whether my writing is well-received or ignored, remind me of your unfailing love and the bedrock work of Jesus. Thank you that no amount of writing, good or bad, can make you love me any more or less than you do right now. You are full of grace.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.
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4 thoughts on “A Writer’s Honest Prayer”
Amen, brother. I needed to read this as much if not more than you needed to write it.
Thanks, Jeremy. I’m glad it was helpful. (And I *did* need to write it!)
This is so, so helpful. I saved it to read when I had time to thoroughly ponder. Well worth the wait…..
Thanks, Linda! I’m glad it was helpful.